i used to be so afraid of forgetting the Quranic verses memorized that i actually slow down my pace when i was younger. Peeps wanted to complete within 1-3 years, i wanted 10-30 years.
The fear of meeting up with God in the hereafter with incomplete forgotten Quranic verses and the punishments promised. Instead of getting heavenly crowns for my parents, i fear i get otherwise. (May Allah protect us all)
Nevertheless, this time i resolute to do better insyaAllah with God’s guidance and permission.
This invitation is truly a gift like no other. I have shared my passion for hifz during my youths and not many want to do it. Perhaps the weight of it felt super huge and heavy for some.
From what Ive experienced, there is a fine line between heaven and hell for hifz students. For sure, we will be tested not just in hifz but in life itself and what we have memorised -how are we going to implement them in our lives?
I was once a quranic teacher teaching both adults and youths the basic reading with tajwid. And it felt i was doing good for awhile. Because it was said that the best peeps are the one who learn and teach AlQuran. But i was also tested and i failed.
I failed many many times.
And there came a point that i gave up, ashamed of my many failings.
This time, i fear the same but i seek God’s guidance and protection from it all thru many prayers and supplication. Hopefully this time, i take 1 step at a time . Hopefully my maturity also helps. And this time, i hope i wont be alone in this matter. I got my kids to join me in my quests.
I had prepared them to be huffaz before they were born. I even get my Hifz teacher from Mecca Medina to tahnik them when they were born. My eldest and I had started when we were in schools. Only my youngest is first timer.
Hopefully with this small tribe of hifz buddies, we can walk hand in hand and remind each other if we ever get lost.
I used to have a hifz buddy. A partner to listen to each others’ progress and daily experiences. But we split when we each got married.
I believe we need like minded peeps to keep us on our toes in every mission we undertake.
If you are in a tahfiz school, you may not need a hifz buddy cos you got plenty to help you in your journey. But as adults who is in a secular country like me. I felt a must to have likeminded peeps in my surroundings.
What about you? Do you have a hifz buddy?
May Allah guide us always.Amiin.